Chapter 59: I Have To Make A Choice...
'I don't want to lose her... But I also can't tell her the truth... Damn it, what should I do? What can I do?
If I lie to her now, there's no turning back. But if I tell her the truth, then I might lose her forever too. She'll never forgive me for cheating on her with my mother, and I won't be able to blame her for that. It's just not fair...
Why did I have to fall in love with my mom? Why did she have to fall in love with me? And why did I have to go after Aunt Jennifer, Ashley, and Rose too? Why did they have to come after me as well?
What is wrong with us? Why did this happen?' Lucifer thought as he looked at Gwen, who was still glaring at him.
'I have to make a choice... But which one should I choose? Tell her the truth about our affairs and risk losing her forever? Or lie to her now and hope she doesn't find out about it later?' Lucifer wondered as he looked at Gwen's face.
She was still crying, and her eyes were filled with anger. She looked as if she wanted to slap him, but she restrained herself because she knew that this would make things even worse for her. 'Damn it... There's only one option left for me now.
I can't risk losing her.'
"You're right, Gwen. I kissed another girl for a commercial shoot. And I know you must be furious with me for doing such a thing to you. But I swear, it was all part of the script.
Moreover, you do know that I have never done any modeling before, right? It was my mom's sudden decision to make me a model, and I had no choice but to follow through with it. But I promise you that nothing happened between that model and me.
We're just good friends, and that's it." Lucifer said as he looked into Gwen's eyes with determination. He hoped that she would understand what he meant and accept his explanation.
Gwen looked at him in shock, her eyes wide open. "What?! Your mother decided that?! You mean your mom made you cheat on me?!
That's impossible! How could she do such a thing?!"
"No, Gwen. It's not like that. You don't seem to understand." He sighed and took her hands into his own, holding them tightly as he looked into her eyes.
"That was just an act. Nothing less, nothing more. My mom has been working in the entertainment industry for a long time. She knows what it takes to make a good commercial, and she knew that this kiss would make the commercial stand out from the others.
That's why she asked me to kiss the other girl." He explained, trying to make Gwen understand the situation. "For her, on-screen kissing doesn't mean anything because she knows it's just for show. That's why she didn't care about it and asked me to go ahead with it."
"But still... Even if it was for a commercial, you still kissed that woman! And how do I know that you didn't kiss her in private too?!" She demanded, glaring at Lucifer. "How can I trust you anymore when you've already broken my trust by doing such a thing?!"
Lucifer could tell that she was starting to get even angrier now, but he didn't know what else to say. He was trying his best to make her understand the situation, but she was too upset to listen to him.
"Please, Gwen. Don't be like this. You know I would never cheat on you. That kiss didn't mean anything.
It was just for the commercial." He tried to convince her one more time. He didn't want to lose her because of such a stupid mistake. He loved her too much to let her go.
"But..."
"No, Gwen. There's nothing else to say. You know I love you, and I would never hurt you like that. Please forgive me, okay?
I promise that I won't do it again." He pleaded as he held her hands tighter, squeezing them gently as he looked deep into her eyes. "Please... Please forgive me..."
Gwen looked at Lucifer for several moments, her expression softening a bit. After a few seconds, she sighed and nodded her head. "Alright... But only because I love you so much, Lucifer.
Otherwise, I would've broken up with you right away. So don't you dare do such a thing again." She warned him, her tone stern and serious.
"I won't. I promise." Lucifer replied with a smile, glad that she had forgiven him, but in his mind, he had made a silent promise to himself. 'I'm sorry, Gwen. I know that I shouldn't lie to you, but it's better this way.
If you find out about my secret affairs with other women, then you will never forgive me. So, even if it means lying to you, I will do it to keep you by my side forever.'
"Come here, Lucifer." Gwen said as she wrapped her arms around Lucifer's neck and pulled him closer, pressing her lips against his own.
This sudden act surprised Lucifer, who froze for a second, as she never allowed him to kiss her on the lips due to her purity beliefs.
However, he soon relaxed as he closed his eyes and enjoyed the taste of her soft lips. It was as if all the worries and concerns that had been tormenting him vanished into thin air. He didn't care about anything else at that moment except kissing his beloved girlfriend.
The warmth of her body against his own, the sweetness of her mouth, and the fragrance of her hair combined with the sounds of her heavy breathing made Lucifer's heart race even faster than before. It was as if all his senses had been heightened by her kiss. It was the best feeling in the world.
After several moments, Lucifer opened his eyes and looked into Gwen's beautiful black eyes as she smiled at him, her face flushed red. "I love you so much, Lucifer... Don't ever leave me..." She whispered before kissing him again.